Playing the fish in fishworld..it's worse than crack..wow where to start..it's 430am wide awake doing laundry. Mike left and while frankly I could care less it pisses me off that he's ditched his son AGAIN. What a fucking loser. Speaking of losers, past few days have been so very kind to remind me of all the losers that I've wasted my precious time here on earth on. Work is work, and life is life, can't believe I went all over the place on VV. Maybe I'm the biggest loser of them all.

Hmmm why can't I just keep my big trap shut? here we go again on facebook. Well you know what? They want to put it out there thenI'm going to respond in my fashion..it's a free fucking world. Yeah and if I did have a nickel for every moment wasted on clowns I'd be a rich bitch...

oh what to do...I cannot have this kid treating my grandchildren so horribly. I might have to resort to other measures...

gonna get ready for work..should be a long tiring day..lol. Figure it all out from there..

I owe I owe it's off to work I go..starting to get the house back in order..wheww

playn hookey today..woohoot

oh ok..whatever..

Well..that's a nice how do youdo...Manda is shackin' up with the boy toy and moving out. Not a word not a fuck off it's been real not nothing. I swear if that kid does anything to those babies I'm gonna strangle him and her. I am really pissed about this morning. For christs sake he's a little boy having a melt down..(of course that's my fault my stomping around in the morning wakes up the kids so I've been told). Let's see I've bent over backwards and pretty much have gotten slapped in the face..par for the course for Amanda. Spoiled selfish bitch. But you can't tell her anything. Just accept her shit attitude, her shit mouth and live with it. Well when she can't make the bills (which is exactly what will happen) I ain't bailing her out again..

ahhh yes the old 'you're disrespectful and talk too much' routine..that's what all men say to women they can't control...you're right guys, I AM disrespectful (show some respect and I'll guarantee you get some in return) and I might talk too much but that's after listening to the lies, the bullshit, the whining, the games, the aggravation, and the complaints that you NEVER EVER do anything about. Just a thought...

Hi ho let's go...why the hell do you keep coming up in conversation? You are a royal pain in the ass you know this right? For fuck's sake be a man..

back to the grind..get off your butt and go to work Pineda! lol

back from vacation..good time in Ft. Myers and Captiva..got back just in time before Steve started his crap which he started this morning. Oh well, whatever. Going to go see my horsie poo

off to the Fort of Myers!!!!!! WHOOOHOOOOOT!!!!!!!!

slow and low morning...got the kids. gonna call Steve later. I miss you I hate you you're a bastard.

Wow..long day. My dad announced he won't be helping out with Aaron's band expenses, (sure doesn't stop him from watching Susan's kids all thelive long day ) but we'll figure it out. I'm so tired of the crap and the whole Anita and her kids are the losers theme. Whatfuckingever. At least tomorrow is Thursday. whoohoot

Well another day in the can..cooking dinner. The kids are taking the car..I don't have any more cash and only the gas that's in the tank..great. Aaron said that her car broke down, grrreat. A recruiter form the marines called Aaron. He's too young. Reading in twinsouls/twinflame forums. More interesting stories. I miss you even though you're a complete fuck.

thank Goddess their home..everyone's (gwen included) is bundled up inside the cozy (for now) clean house and is safe wheewh

good, the kids shouldbe home any moment now. (barring the shuttle traffic). Anyway had a bonzo weekend. Did what I wanted to do...it's fab. Skewer's was mighty awesome! got treated like the queen I know I am (lol) and just totally got into the whole experience. gonna call my brucifer and see what he's doing with the story and thank him. Spent some time with steve..he makes me laugh I swear. Anyho, gonna go get the phone and make some phone calls and check the laundry andother stuff. Nice little ride on my horsie tonite..love ya BudBud..Oh yeah, and Kenny texting me during dinner about pix? What the hell..wonder if he was trying to send me nked ones..oh bruther dude..anyway got to get it's raining like a mofo and I need to find amanda.

tank god it's thursday..amanda taking off to the bastard's in SC. WTF? must be nice to cruise out on a trip spending money like agua. Anyho, at least ALL the eye candy was at work. hehe heard from kenmonster yesterday. Glad he's doing good. All for now.

Today is the 4th. Had a great nite hangin' with the ladies and their men from the barn. Got a little tipsy and watched fireworks. Great nite, kids are home they had a good time too. Happy 4th.

I need money so bad! At any rate gearing up for the weekend..

Thank God it's Thursday cause I feel like crap!

Long day..I'm tired, watching Y & R. Hope Amanda brings home ice..inane how tired and gone I really am.

Well..slept late, and now I've gotta pay! Get off my ass and get with it around here. The babies are home and Aaron and Mark are here. Ryan emailed me on myspace wanting to know if I had the kids today. I don't even want to go there and deal with the drama! Geez. At any rate I've got some shit to get done today, and will probably go out with Steve tonite.

Life is like a box of grenades, you never know when it's all gonna blow..

Oh yeah, my grand ambitions were realized today..Queen of Nothing..lol..however love the love and kisses from the babies

I need to get off my ass and do something productive....maybe after a nap

Well I about shat myself when I saw the waterbill...186 bucks??? OMG I will not afford rent and water I'm fucked. Farrah and Michael Jackson died today..wow.bet they could afford a two hundred dollar frickin water bill..

what a strange day..car acting weird for me but not for anyone else. Had a snowcone was awesome. Long day at the ick club, little or no sleep last nite as the night before and the nite before that..hopefully I'm feeling very drowsy at the moment. Y & R awesome stories are going on right now. Steve wandered around Wallyworld with me. I'm unbelievably tired.

wow..I'm beat. Ready to crash and burn lol. Thunder only happens when it's raining..alot of thunder. Was going to float in the tub then stayed on sites too long as always. I need to write something. Something to get us out of this cycle of colony park. I need my own land, but we'll see. Might help if I remembered to buy lotto.

I love this one

Just got home from work. Didn't ride. It's way tooo hot and Cathy is sick. She's so cute lol. Wished dad happy father's day, then he tore into me about Aaron's books. Any cognizant thought I ever think, just flows down the drain like a slow toilet, when Ann and Bill start in on me. I just sit there and just go ahem, yeah, ok, I'm sorry (the everlasting never ending phrase of I'm sorry), and can give them no reasonable explanation. Oh I know that if I did it probably wouldn't be believed or sympathized with, well, sometimes. I don't know. They're my parents. I'm glad they're having a good time in GA. I have this overwhelming urge to grab some girls and go whoop it up at a local pub. Just for shits and giggles. I want to party some. At any rate, maybe Fort Myers will turn out good. Who knows. I love the man I swear I do, but he's such a pain in the ass. Such a typical fish (pisces). Never know what kind of mood he's gonna be in and just how pissy and how much of it is actually your fault. If I knew that's how I made other people feel I wouldn't understand why they even liked me at all. He just doesn't get it. He's sweet and cute when he wants to be, but then again aren't they all? Don't even go there Juanita, it just ain't worth it and it makes your brain hurt like hell.

watching old episodes of Y & R on youtube. feeling blah...miss you even though you're an ass.

once in a million years a lady like her rises...listening to the Goddess that is Stevie Nicks..just toodling around doing housework, laundry. Quiet weekend. Still thinking about you the everlasting Nightmare...went to sleep last nite with your face in my mind. I hate you. Ilove you. It never ends. Oh well...good ride last nite, horse was great. Sore ass. That's it for now.

The ladys at the barn are sooo kewl. Taking care of Bud and me. I'm sooo glad I'm there. Today was spent mostly snoozing. Ran a few errands. Don't really know what Amanda's plans are I just pray that all will turn out from there. God my body is so sore..it's sort of depressing, used to be able to take a hit like that. Oh well, I'm old I get it. Watching prostitution documentaries. Interesting. All for now.

crap

Man, fell off the horse just when we were hitting a good stride through the woods. Bird flew up, he spooked then stumbled, and that was it..christ I looked like a moron. And boy am I sore..gonna take some more ibuprofin and say forget it. I'm not going to work tomorrow methinks...ouch

Always

it appears to be a long time...coming. Wow. Strange weekend. Saw Lisa Woodard tonite and her hubby Bobby. Blasts from the pat. How bizarre. My daughter. Now there is a topic. She's driving me crazy. She wonders why the kids want to hang on, to cling? Good god child. Her and Ryan have both lost their collective minds. And in the interim, here I am and Aaron, let's not forget my son we both have taken the babies to heart. God I love them all, need to have a boot inserted up amanda's butt. Went out with Steve tonite. Yeeyawn, as he tried to take out my journal out of my purse and read it. Almost had smack him with it. jesus, what a joke. Should have gone down to see my Brucifer tonite, and spent the nite. Oh, Vic. And yes I miss you too, you lying cheating, freak of nature. I guess this will be the theme for a while. At least the bills are paid. Wish Amanda would quit bringing the new guys here at the house. I am NOT interested in the meet and greet. trying not to be a snotty bitch but hey, it's my right. going to bed to getready for another week at the ick clube, hopefully I won't be moved to kill castrate or tell off any stupid idiot there either. NITE