don't be dickrickulous...just struck me that's all..

So the idea of gettin' rid of almost everything I own, and paring down to life's essentials, pulling up stakes and setting up camp on Chris's property is sounding more than appealing. It sounds like heaven at this point. I"ll have alot of work to do around this place. Repair and clean mostly, throwing away most everything that's rot especially. It's time. And it's time to live for ME. Not the kids, not some idiot male..just me..and my familiars (friends included lol). Its time...

Oh la..what to do what to do..Aaron, what the hell are you thinking? More likely than not you're not thinking. This i just shit pure and simple shit. I'm so disapointed, devastated, depressed. Thanks Mike for all the help with your son. Another sad sack of shit there. Great, now what Grand Goddess? Amanda of course is no help at all. I'm about ready to pitch it all out the window and go live in thewoods.

who'd a thought that I'd look more forward to parking my ass in front of farmville than going out on a saturday nite with Steve? Ahhhh bliss to type my thoughts alone. Had fun at Indiafest with Brucifer. Got the absolute kewlest tshirt with Ganesh on it. Obstacles to overcome. Absolutely and practically always. Cold colder and coldest. But it's feb so it's ok. The jack'd neighbor is an absolute asshole. Don't really want to go back to work, but must, and oh yes, unless we forget , to all the dickheads I've loved before..so many, such a waste of time. I've learned my lessons, believe me. Painfully. They all seem to have one thing in common, out of all the differences, in the end they all believed that somehow they were 'superior' to me, because of my femaleness. Boy have I got news for you bruther.. They all wanted to suck the life out of me figuratively and literally. A few boys I remember fondly, but by and large the entire lot of them deserve one another. Let them drive each other mad, if not as bonkshit as they drove me. And I'm the fucking asshole...that's right baby, and you have no conscious clue of how much a one I can really be.

Playing the fish in fishworld..it's worse than crack..wow where to start..it's 430am wide awake doing laundry. Mike left and while frankly I could care less it pisses me off that he's ditched his son AGAIN. What a fucking loser. Speaking of losers, past few days have been so very kind to remind me of all the losers that I've wasted my precious time here on earth on. Work is work, and life is life, can't believe I went all over the place on VV. Maybe I'm the biggest loser of them all.

Hmmm why can't I just keep my big trap shut? here we go again on facebook. Well you know what? They want to put it out there thenI'm going to respond in my fashion..it's a free fucking world. Yeah and if I did have a nickel for every moment wasted on clowns I'd be a rich bitch...

oh what to do...I cannot have this kid treating my grandchildren so horribly. I might have to resort to other measures...